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|Wednesday, October 18th, 2006|
It's over. But I think there's hope
|Sunday, July 10th, 2005|
|Just give that umbelical chord a nice big chop
Whew, long time since an update. Well, a whole lot's happened, but I wont bore you with all of that. Suffice it to say, I've had lots of fun here. I'm excited to come back, though. To everyone who is reading this, I am having a welcome back party for myself on the 30th of July I think at greg's house but I'm not sure. It is a costume party and the theme is "badasses". You are all invited. Every last one of you. That's right, all six of the people reading this are invited. And when I see you I'll tell you all about my exploits. I should post pictures on here, especially since now I know how. Next post: pictures. Current Mood: distracted
|Sunday, June 12th, 2005|
|We're never gonna survive, unless we get a little crazy
So, huge expanse of time since I last updated. A whole shitload of things have happened. I'll probably leave a lot of them unmetioned. In all honesty I dont remember that much right now. I've realised, right now, what Santa Cruz means to me. To me, in my most recent memory, Santa Cruz is summer. Summer vacation to be precise. Remember those Volkswagon commersials a few years ago? The ones with four people in a car driving through different towns named after points in your life. One was wedding, there was prom, childhood, and each of them had an eighties song playing that kinda defined it and made it a cool commercial. It seems like I took that too seriously and have since used the points in my life to describe certain places. Although I do that a lot. Take some form of pop culture too seriously. I think I saw movies like High Fidelity and American Beauty and Fight Club, movies that are mainly about a man throwing his normal life of working aside in favor of starting over or completely changing, too early in my life. Or else I just took them too seriously. Because at this point, the only reason I could see to work at a monotonous job for 25-50 years is to give it up and go crazy at some point. And although that would be fun in the end, I'm impatient and am fine with cutting out the middle man and going crazy now. I've also pondered on those self-finding missions. Maybe I should leave for seven years, travel the world and what-not, and come back as Jesus. Or Batman. Or at least with some direction. I can understand the real reason, though. It's to see how everyone I know would have turned out when I got back. For example, My favorite thing about high school is going to be the 20-year reunion. I've been looking forward to that since grade school. I think I first heard about it on an episode of "Wings", I was like, "you get to see your friends 20 years later? Awesome!" And that was pretty much the gist of it. Oh, by the way, we gotta scanner so I scanned a bunch of pictures but I cant figure out how to put them on here. They are on photobucket, but I cant get them on here, so any help is much appreciated. Thanks. Current Mood: you dont want to know
|Wednesday, May 18th, 2005|
|Hold the line, love isnt always on time
So, yeah. Long time no update. Not a lot's happened and at the same time a whole smorgesboard of shit has happened. Oh, this is an actual fortune cookie I recieved at Ollie's chinese restaurant in Manhattan, "You would make a good lawyer." Seriously, it said that. I should play the lucky numbers on the back. I like my networking skills, of late. It seems like I've simultaneously reconnected with most of my SC friends and made some new NY friends. Yeah, I rock. I like the whole independant adult aspect of that. Nobody told me to do that, and I didnt get anyone's permission, either. I like how that's been slowly happening with everything. I used to think of myself as independant but I really wasnt. Not yet. I'm going to see Star Wars on Friday morning at 1:30. Tehn I have a wedding to go to on Saturday. Then Evan is coming into town for his sister's graduation and I'm gonna hang out with him. I'm looking forward to all of those things a lot. It's been a while since I was really looking forward to the weekend for certain specific things. There was something I wanted to say but now I forget. SAN DIMAS HIGH SCHOOL FOOTBALL RULES!! Current Mood: completely insane
|Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005|
|You guys are awesome, I'm an idiot
What would you think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me.
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
And I'll try not to sing out of key.
I get by with a little help from my friends,
I get high with a little help from my friends,
Going to try with a little help from my friends.
What do I do when my love is away.
(Does it worry you to be alone)
How do I feel by the end of the day
(Are you sad because you're on your own)
No I get by with a little help from my friends,
Do you need anybody,
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love.
Would you believe in a love at first sight,
Yes I'm certain that it happens all the time.
What do you see when you turn out the light,
I can't tell you, but I know it's mine.
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends,
Do you need anybody,
I just need somebody to love,
Could it be anybody,
I want somebody to love.
I get by with a little help from my friends,
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends,
With a little help from my friends.
|Sunday, May 1st, 2005|
I just saw two cool movies and an awesome show. The Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy is really good. Very good adaptation, they kind of streamline it a bit, and make a few mistakes, but its a good movie. Kung fu Hustle is good as well. I wish it was improperly subtitled like Shoalin Soccer in Till's class, but it was still pretty good. Now for the awesomeness. Tonight I saw Mila Kunis, Seth Green, Alex Borstein, Seth MacFarlane, Mike Henry, David Goodman, and Steve Callaghan live and in person reading an episode entitled, "to love and die in Dixie". That's right, I'm talking about fucking Family Guy live. It was awesome. I saw the ten o'clock show so everyone was pretty toasted already, and they didnt make a big secret out of it. Some quick things: Mila Kunis is really hot, a little slow, but really hot. Seth Green is really short and really funny. Same for Alex Borstein. The both of them kept making out over the giant TV screen. Seth MacFarlane's practically a god. The guy can write all that, draw all of it, and do a good third of the voices. And his normal talking voice is Brian. Spot on.They all read through the episode, stopping occasionally to improvise something or laugh at something shouted at them by the audience.Then they showed a preview of the Season premiere episode tomorrow night at 9 o'clock. Then they had a Q&A session with the audience. There were a surprising amount of people asking to do a variety of things with Mila Kunis' poop. Yeah. Weird. But the las question piqued my interest. It seems that there is a Family Guy video game in the works. So chew on that. Um, other good movies I've seen recently: Oldboy, really good, creepy, funny, Korean thriller. Highly reccomended. Palindromes, Todd Solondz's (you may remeber him from a nice, uplifting movie "Happiness") hilarious and sad movie about little aviva, a twelve year old girl who more than anything wants to have a baby. Millions, nice, happy, cute movie. Downfall, fascinating, depressing, German movie all about the last days of Hitler. And probably some others. Maybe I'll post on that later. Goodnight Current Mood: hungry
|Tuesday, March 29th, 2005|
Ask me 4 questions. Any 4, no matter how personal, dirty, private, or absurd. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal, and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.
|Saturday, March 26th, 2005|
|I've got soul, but I'm not a soldier
So I'm moving back to California, gonna go the Cabrillo route for a while. I've decided its probably better to actually be in college while deciding what I'm gonna do. Even though that's the complete opposite of why I took the year off, I think. I don't know why I did that. I'm not really sure of why I did most of everything. I used to think that it was because all of the adults I knew had gone into college immedeately after high school, not knowing what they were going to do. They then graduated and proceeded to try and carve this life out for themselves. Most of them had dreams of an easy life of money and granduer, generally in the entertainment industry. None of these ever took off and they were forced to fall back on their handy dandy college education. But that's not enough anymore. It's now a prerequisite to have a college degree, if not a master's, to be smart, and industrious. Now it really helps to be lucky, and know the right people. AAAAARGH! When is this gonna stop? How long am I gonna keep second guessing myself? When am I gonna be comfortable with the decisions I make? Will I ever? I think I just took a year off because I didnt know what else to do, and I probably wanted to be different, and rebellious. Moving across country sounded good at the time. I'm probably just resigning to accept that, from now on. When I'm furious at myself, I can always say,"Cut me some slack, I didnt know any better." I just have to put it all forward, start backing myself up. If I'm confident from the get go, then I wont have anything to worry about, right? Current Mood: confident...hah!
|Sunday, March 13th, 2005|
|come cloudchaser, we must crywalk
When was the last time you cried? Did you feel better afterwards? I dont know why I said that, just a random thought. I feel a little overextended with creative stuff. I'm reading six books right now. Madness. Crazy drawing stuff and whatnot. As of right now, the career decision is balancing between real college (for at this moment veterinary medicine, but who knows how long that will last) and art school. Looking back I dont think this was a good idea. I could have thought about all of this while in college, I'm not making that much money at work, and now I've gashed this big hole between me and all of my friends. And I've done nothing with colleges. I've sent no applications, visited no schools. I've done a little research on various schools and career choices, but other than that I'm pushing month nine in my year off and I've got pretty much nothing to show for it. I've thought a lot, but thats not new. I know that college is pivotal, in all aspects of life afterwards. You got to college, you meet people, you learn, you interact, you understand, you make friendships and you get a degree. Then you graduate, find a job, get married, have a family. Continue the cycle. Keep churning em out so that society can still go on, the world can still exist. Do you really believe that? Is that why you continue going through your life, to perpetuate the cycle? Current Mood: self consciously pissed off
|Sunday, March 6th, 2005|
|you have days to be happy, and years to be sad
for some retarded reason, Hoboken decided to have their St. Patty's day parade twelve days before St. Patrick's day. This just happened to be the same day that I was finnagled into babysitting a 2 1/2 year old who lives right smack dab in the middle of, you guessed it, downtown Hoboken. So, being amidst the insanity of massive drunken mobitude for most of the day, I was able to document the several stages that above forementioned mob goes through. 1) First stage: pre-smashed organization and excitement. Symptoms: lining up in the hundreds in front of bars at around 10:30, excitedly scarfing down disgusting Mcdononaldland hamburgers in order to try and soak up the gallons of alcohol about to be consumed, taking part in the general feeling of excitement and anticipation in the air. 2) second stage: rabble-rousing. Symptoms: attempting to disrupt a parade which consists primarily of a few bartenders from several different bars carrying banners and a few guys playing bagpipes, passing out in parks due to being completely toasted at 12:05 in the afternoon. 3) third stage: alcohol consumption to the retardedth power. Symptoms: Drinking. Shitloads. These people cant decide they're in ireland or in some demented, frat-house Bacchanal, complete with vomitorium (oh just you wait). 4) fourth stage: pass out, throw up, or get in a fight. Symptoms: do you really need my help with this one? 5) fifth stage: home is where you make it. Symptoms: time to go home, but if thats too far, just make the sidewalk your new bed. 6) sixth stage: I'm gonna make you feel pretty. Symptoms: slurringly yelling and fighting with whoever you are currently going out with, or whoever's just standing next you. 7) final stage: the morning after. Symptoms: frozen vomit (extreeemely unpretty). coffee. And there you have it, now youre all set for the debauch al awaiting you in 11 days. Current Mood: good
|Thursday, February 24th, 2005|
|Have you ever taken a piss in the middle of a snowstorm?
Invigorating. So yeah, driving through a blizzard is surreal. Especially because the radio DJ's decided to play the BEST SNOW DRIVING MUSIC EVER! playlist: Imagine-john lennon, Goodbye yellow brick road-elton john, Guerrilla radio-rage against the machine, some awesome song by Bob Dylan, Fake plastic trees-radiohead, Where the streets have no name-U2. Isnt that sweet? Now mind you, I'm doing about 35 in the middle of the Pulaski skyway with three foot drifts of snow on either side of me and constant snow pouring down in front of me. yeah. madness.
Last week I went into Central Park to see the gates. That was really cool. The gates are the next sculpture thing by Christo. It's thousands of twelve foot tall, bright orange gates that span 23 miles of trails and paths inside the park. Yeah, its pretty crazy. The color really stands out from the brown and grey trees and ground. I took more picture, which I'll post as soon as I figure out how to post the Jungle Habitat ones. (no scanner, regular camera)
Oh, some student at NYU (frank? I dont remember his name) is going to drive my car back to Santa Cruz, where Dane is going to drive it around until I get it back. The guy is making some road trip student film, and needed a car. And my parking permit just ran out and the only way to renew it is to register my car here, and insurance here is INSANE ($3,400 for six months) so I needed to get rid of my car. So it seemed to work out pretty well. Craigslist.org rules. Current Mood: toasty inside, freezin outside
|Friday, February 18th, 2005|
|Sunday, February 13th, 2005|
|did you know that an average veterinarian salary is more than that of an architect?
Really, I'm not kidding. So it looks like I'll be spending a minimum of two months here to raise the money to start back up in santa cruz, so I'll make the best of it. Have as much fun as I can. Yesterday me and my dad drove up to this abandoned zoo in West Milford, New Jersey. "Jungle Habitat" was only open fro a few years in the seventies before it was closed down due to allegations of animal abuse. Now it is a state-run park, that most people use as a dog run. All of the roads and paths are still there. And a good number of cages and scenery are still intact, albeit pretty overgrown and not in the best of shape. The two massive parking lots have turned into habitats in and of themselves, with overgrown plantlife and animals making it their home. Speaking of wildlife, supposedly when they closed, the owners didnt see a need to sell the animals so they just let them loose into the surrounding woods. So if you're everin Jefferson, New Jersey and you see a kangaroo ata bus stop, you know why. Current Mood: eating a balogna sandwich
|Wednesday, February 9th, 2005|
|Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose
Hey Everyones doing it:
if you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
it can be anything you want-- good or bad,
just as long as it happened.
then post this to your journal and see what people remember about you...
|Thursday, February 3rd, 2005|
|Veterinarian's sounding really fun, actually. Of course I am watching doctor doolittle
So I got back from Santa Cruz on Wednesday. It was an awesome trip. I'm currently figuring out the logistics of moving back. Here are some things that happened:
-realized that "The pool guy" is the funniest episode of Seinfeld.
-Got a wicked bad cold from sleeping in some sick girl's dorm.
-Saw Lewis Black live.
-Got a hug from a random hot college student doing an experiment for her "nonverbal communication" class. Seriously, could I make that up?
-Saw most of my friends in S.C.
-Got to hang out with almost everyone alone at some point.
-Got to see Greg.
-Saw a sweet ultra-indie move. "In the Realms of the Unreal"
-Got to see Lisa
-Visited a college, liked the dorm atmosphere.
-Had a couple cool Saturn and Denny's excursions, a Santa Cruz must.
-Got to check off some squares in my "must meet" list.
-Trekked to Davenport, then barged back in time to meet Jasmine's curfew.
-Felt the new astro turf at Soquel high, by the light of the moon, and the bark of the dog.
-Flew back to Jersey and caught the bus in time for work, kinda.
Yeah it was pretty sweet. Now back to urgent life decisions. Current Mood: bouncy
|Wednesday, January 26th, 2005|
|If I had any more money I'd probably just give it away
So I'm going back to Santa Cruz in two days. Its gonna be awesome. I know I'm gonna have fun and not wanna leave. So I might not. One of the many, many things I want to do there is find out some stuff about moving back. Talk to some people about moving in, ask my mom if it would be okay, test the waters for jobs, stuff like that. Its funny that only after I have a commitment to be out here do I start yearning to be back. I'm also just now starting to look for a life out here. I found a really cool drawing class/open model session thing at the Society of Illustrators. Its in this cool little building on the third floor in this little room with a stage in the center and a bar in the back and they have models in the center and a live jazz band in the front. Its really cool. Its an awesome atmopsphere. I've gone twice so far and I really like it. But thats it as far as life goes, out here.
but heres something really funny: Current Mood: excited
|Friday, January 14th, 2005|
|Hahahahaha, this was fun
Describe yourself using one band and song titles from that band
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|Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:||I'm not that easily defined. Multiple artists|
|Are you male or female:||not a girl, not yet a woman-britney spears|
|Describe yourself:||I might be a cunt, but I'm not a fucking cunt-tism|
|How do some people feel about you:||Creep-Radiohead|
|How do you feel about yourself:||Living in Oblivion-Anything Box|
|Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:||Turning Japanese-the Vapors|
|Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:||Who is it?-the Talking Heads|
|Describe where you want to be:||California-Phantom Planet|
|Describe what you want to be:||Out of site-James Brown|
|Describe how you live:||Under pressure-Queen with David Bowie|
|Describe how you love:||Rock you like a hurricane-The Scorpians|
|Share a few words of wisdom||You dont have to live like a refugee-Tom Petty|
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|Tuesday, January 11th, 2005|
|Saturday, January 1st, 2005|
|Do new years resolutions have to be definite, yes or no type of statements?
So working 9 to 5 is the best thing for me to be doing right now...hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. If I knew what was the best thing for me to be doing right now I would probably be a lot happier. I have no idea if I should be out here or back in santa cruz. I keep thinking that if I go back it proves that I'm not able to commit to my decisions, or that I'm a wimp for tucking my tail between my legs and running home. So I dont know what to do. But hey, this is a blogging site, isnt it? So I put the question to you: Is it a good idea, in every sense, for me to move back to california? Not only will this shed some light on this subject from various perspectives, it will also tell how many, if any, people read this journal.
|Saturday, December 4th, 2004|
|Hey this is my first new one, isnt it
WellI decided to change my name, now I've just gotta get a good icon. So I just got back from Key West a few days ago. That was awesome. Got a job as well. Cool. Some people are going to come out to New York to visit and thats gonna be really fun. I'll add something later. Current Mood: relaxed